openness

Sensitivity

so feel like an island.

A fortress fortified with

defenses unpenetrable–as if

I was ‘proud’ of my

‘untouchablelness’.

I have always been a

defender as opposed to

an aggressor–

peaceable mostly.  Impatient

and irritable & demanding

even, sometimes.

Yet for all that, I remain

alone–distant at an

extended arm’s length

from almost everyone.

It’s so painful to communicate

on an intimate level–I am

so easily hurt–it’s really not

fair–I can be ‘tough’ but then

I’m not vulnerable and tend

to be ‘bossy’ to exert my

authority or dominance

when I sometimes do so.

I’m glad I’m ‘smart’ but

sad I’m sad & sensitive

sometimes it seems such

a hardship.

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Crossing the line

I want to break out

of the mold

the die

I was cast in.

Reach over the fence

unlock the gate

and walk through.

To a new field–

of dreams…

pleasant ones

I can grab

and embrace

and hold tight

to

for a while

until it’s time

to let go again

and wander

into a new field–

of dreams…

Silhouetted Joshua trees and sunset. Joshua Tree National Park. California

Silhouetted Joshua trees and sunset. Joshua Tree National Park. California

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Communication

I have a friend.  Men friends

don’t always talk a lot.

Verbalize their feelings.

That leaves us to potential

misunderstandings most

of the time.  It’s better to state

it out–even better put it in

writing.  Then everyone’s clear

on what’s coming down & when

& where.

Women & men relate

differently.  Men don’t want to

deal with their feelings

much or express them in

an “unmanly” way.

I’m just generalizing

but I miss being close

to a female emotionally

with communication

open & constant.

The “c” word–commitment

makes me feel I’ve

given up my freedom.

I want to meet someone

who is perfectly OK with

both.  And it goes for each.

Spider Web with dew and blurred flowers. Near Alpine, Oregon

Spider Web with dew and blurred flowers. Near Alpine, Oregon

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Experiment

I’m so willing to try

what works.

Openness of mind requires

courage, although it may

not seem so.

Everyone is genetically different

even though you may find

yourself in a particular “group”.

So, what works for one

does not necessarily work for

all, even though we are all

humans.

So being open to experiment

–yourself being the “lab rat”,

requires letting go of

OK, for wow!

Anyway, on-going conditions

let the chips fall as

they change where they may.

So, one day at a time,

though trite,

may be the sanest and

best way to get through

a tailored existence–

fitting you to a T

at least temporarily.

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Sailboat off St. John, Virgin Islands and sunset.

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Anew

A chance to start anew

each day brings light

to shine

without and within

and drive out the dark

places

so once again

we may see

better than before.

Each day a little

brighter.

Each day less and

less darkness.

No shame in being

seen.

All will be revealed

anyway.

Just to be who

we are, I am

you are

is to shine our

miracle of existence

like no other can.

Close up of yellow Ranunculus.

Close up of yellow Ranunculus.

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A Crooked Path

I kind of like that I follow

some inner impulse–

most of the time.

I worry about not being

perfect.  The universe

chuckles over that all

the time.

I go in a rather jagged,

zig-zag course forward

trying to “feel” where

I’m going as well as

watch out for running

into poles while I’m so

engrossed in myself!

Sensible thinking also

comes along.  I’m not

sure how helpful it is.

It’s usually built with

guilt & fear which are

useless to me.

Yet I carry that baggage

& most of it sticks to

me like glue as much

as I try to shed it off.

At the end of the day

I get to let it rest

and I usually get

to go at it again the

next day.

Even with a map,

I still veer.

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Field of yellow tulips with one red tulip. Mt. Vernon. Washington

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Mighty Fastball

Everyday

I am thankful

so today is

just

another

one.

Everything

I have

everything

I am

Who I know

Who knows me.

Dr. Seuss

My Dr. in the heavens

My Dr. on earth

Whoever it is

is welcome

to come and

heal me

of all

disease.

Simple

isn’t it?

You invoke

invite in

all the healing

energy out there

& it comes rushing in.

You just have to

receive its mighty

fastball in your mitt.

 

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Rules to Live…Bye

I want to be ‘safe’ by

following the rules

such a good boy scout am I.

I work very hard

to try to get it

all in–every nuance

–nothing or little is

overlooked my detailed

mind is so meticulous.

But ‘rules’ aside, I study

so much there’s a ‘rule’

against everything I do

to follow one or another

rule I’ve chosen for the time

being.  So, I’m always

breaking the rules, so

why not just do what

I want and see what feels

good?   Some things, I know

I’m in for trouble if I enter

that territory.  Not to be

negative, but who can argue

with repeated failure?  I’d

rather go where at least I

had hit or miss successes &

try for more consistency.

So, as has been said the only

rule is to have no rules.

Life is really a continuing

experiment with more rough

edges than tried & true guidelines.

Close up of Maarn Dahlia. Oregon

Close up of Maarn Dahlia. Oregon

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Living Now Being Joy

One day.  I rest.

Enough for a while.

My system needs to

reboot.

Then, I’m ready again.

Only for what I want.

I’m reminded that chasing

anything is a huge waste of

time.

And extra effort seems like

a job, more than a game–

effortless, fun, enjoyable–

anything less is not life.

Not living, or a living death.

That means patience has to

come into play & faith.

I’ve wondered about that

word, faith.  It’s so foreign

in my life, it seems.  Either

something is or it isn’t.

To hope for it does no good.

It can go at its own inclination.

And then where are you left?

But negativity & resignation

can close opportunities–

so somewhere in the

middle of those two

extremes will manifest

what I want.

 

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Speakeasy

My heart’s opening,

tender, tentative.

It feels silently,

so far.

It wants speech.

It won’t be known

as well from a glance.

Although, a lot’s

revealed in a look.

Perceptive mentally,

it needs a turn,

a voice.

How else will

we know what’s

in there?

What it wants to

say?

I trust

its wisdom.

 

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